I slept in late today, spent 45 minutes in the bathtub BEFORE taking a shower, and read Laura Ingalls Wilder books into the afternoon. I finished up my college application with the help of Mom and Mary Bethie, and I called BYU to tell them that the ACT score showing up was the WRONG ONE and I deserved ONE MORE POINT. Because, you know, that's a big difference.
It was a quiet day in spanks and a t-shirt, wrapped up in a blanket with no makeup. I didn't really talk to any friends, and I didn't run or dance much. My hand is hurting less, and my ankles are relaxing from their smashing and twisting last night, and I felt less nauseated than usual...It was a good, quiet, relaxing day.
What I do feel right now is completely and totally miserable that my sisters aren't here to laugh and eat and watch bones with me. I miss giving endless back rubs. I miss staying up late talking and going shopping and for walks. I miss convincing Mom to let us watch a movie. I miss cooking and even cleaning (or avoiding it). I miss talking about boys with Elise. I really really miss all of my sisters and Rachael and I are intensely jealous that 3 of us are all together in Utah!! I am so anxious for Christmas to get here so I can hug everyone till they push me away, and we can stay up late eating and talking and remembering to whisper because Dad will come knocking on the door. I want to read scriptures with Elise and talk about books (and get new ones to read!!) with Mary Beth. I want to grump about Ruth making me get water or food for her when it's only 2 feet away from her hand. I want to pretend I like the eggplant Rachael hides in all of her food. I MISS MY SISTERS SO MUCH!!! the other day I was thinking about all the friends I've ever had, and feeling upset that somehow all of those friendships eventually faded or ended...and that sometimes I get tired of being friends with someone and want them to go away. I was flooded with joy when I remembered my 4 best friends, girls who are beautiful and talented and intelligent, and no matter what they will always be exciting and fun and MINE. I love you all so much, and I am excited to share my life with you for FOREVER. No matter WHAT, we will always be best friends.
