life comes at you fast--a single day can change who you are forever. it's easiest to not look back with regret at the things you missed out on, or didn't appreciate...on the things you wish you'd changed. is easier to learn from it, and forget it.
i've learned to love with all my heart.
I've learned that the little petty differences, arguments, and concerns, are so stupid they don't even matter...and things that would have made me cry weeks ago just bounce off me now--becuase i know they don't matter.
I've learned to forget about myself, and to start caring about other people.
I've learned that hating god doesn't help, but realizing the things he has given you to strengthen you and help you will build your courage and fortify your weaknesses.
I've learned that sometimes god gives you horrible trials to give you empathy for other people--going through difficult things gives you the knowlege and capability to help others in need.
I've learned that fearing the future ruins the joy you could have in the present.
I've learned that it is better to love and be hurt than to never love at all and miss the joy.
I've learned that god loves his children, and knows them, and there is nothing they can do to change that...he will never leave them.
I've seen parts of me i never knew were there...i've found strength i didn't know existed. tribulations bring out the worst in some, and the best in others, but either way, you find out who you really are.
I've learned to pray.
I've learned to read the scriptures.
I've found a long term perspective for life--and it makes the cliffs into mountains and the hills into plains.
I've learned things that people tell you every day; but only through experience have they resonated in my SOUL.
I've learned that nothing good comes without a price--and the pain is worth the happiness. I've learned not to be afraid of living life...I've learned to take a jump, and pray to god i can fly...because if i keep my feet on the ground, how am i ever going to know what true joy is??
...and i've learned that sisters are one of god's more brilliant ideas. my biggest regret in life is my relationship with my sisters--some of them don't even know who i am.
life can be the most painful, miserable experience. but it can also be filled with joy and gladness. i guess if we want to live it, we have to take both--and it's going go change us, and the changes will be difficult and painful...as if you're a stone and someone is cutting off bits of you with a chisel...but all you can do is plow through it, and thank god for whatever you have to hold onto.
...i gave up chocolate.
...haha. just kidding. :) ...just thought i'd lighten that dark, heavy, in-depth mood...
...i really haven't given up chocolate. ;)
I appreciate the chance to get to know you through your blog, and I hope we can come to understand each other better this summer. I'm glad that you're facing your trials with this perspective, and finding joy even in tough circumstances. I love you, and I love the person you're becoming.
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